Your two faced make me sick.

What they teach you:
If you first don't succeed, try, try, again.

What I've learnt:
If you first don't make it, you're fucked.

I don't need your occasional how are you nor do I need your constant presence. I just wanted to be treated with respect, not some kind of act to keep your conversation going.

sunk too low

I've tried, I really did... Every piece of me is slowly breaking a part.

in life,

Its the feeling of wanting to succeed but so hard to reach and knowing that there are expectations to meet, faces to face and words to hear that made it so hard. One can constantly work their butts off to try to get there, while to some not getting there is not at all worrying. Then you feel like why are you putting youself into all these trouble when you can just let everything go and just live. I, myself find it really scary to not see a future planned out. Of course its even more scary if its not like what I've seen it. Feeling like you've disappointed people around you, is the worst. I guess I'm still figuring out the whole 'life' thing, looking back all those little setbacks cannot be compared to each of the challenge faced ahead. It just gets harder and you just have to make way for better or for worse, whether you like it or not. And hopefully, you'll grow to be a stronger person.. I guess thats what shape you, eventually.

white bells rings aisle flowers

Whoever you are, I wish it'll be blessed by everyone else and I'm hoping you'll be the special one. It scares me to not have an image in my mind, it scares me even more to have one and know thats not possible. And so I'll wait and see who you'll be and I hope you're the special one.

傷日快樂

It seems like everyone else shared their greetings, at the same time none... I guess its just another yesterday. I think I need to grow up now.

Hi are we all alike?

"...fashion industry and designers who only want to dress women with the same dimensions as lampposts, whose bodies won’t interfere unduly with the uniform drop of their dresses."

"People who make other people, themselves and their partners feel guilty about living, about indulging in simple pleasures, are deeply unerotic, even unlovable."

Taken from an article about Gwyneth Paltrow's figure.

I'm don't know about girls out there but I'm pretty sure nowadays everybody enjoys good food, be it desserts or maincourses. I personally love food to an extent where my stomach doesn't know when to stop. I'm not sure if there is a misconception the public has on really thin skinny people on them hating food, I think they just do not like the fact that they will end up getting fat/looking fat hence the fruit diet/veg diet/water diet. 
I do however agree that if your partners, friends or family give you enough compliments instead of criticising every little bits of fats on your body there will be less people in this world feeling so bad about themself. Its true that one who has confidence in themself will come across more sexy and beautiful than one whose not. Well confidence don't just built up by one telling themself their pretty right? Theres another term for one who does anyway. 
When was the last time you actually gave a compliment about someone? No not compliments like 'I like your bag', 'Lovely dress!', 'Amazing shoes!' not what their wearing but how they actually look when they are wearing them. I mean yes we love the attention of those things we put together, the only reason we did is to make ourselves look good the first place so why aren't we getting the compliments instead? 
I just thought that the public has put too much pressure into women only being perfect if they're from the Victoria's Secret runway, they forgot about the ones who aren't blessed with long legs, big boob, ultra fast metabolism etc. Don't 4'9s or 5'' and below want to look good in couture dresses too? Or are there not designers out there who design for vertically challenge people? Or they're just not meant to wear it at all...

Relativity

What do people seek in perfection? Why do one wants to be perfect? Who can you become to be the perfect one for someone else? When will anyone realise that even if you struggle to be one, you'll only be perfect if the person that matter most to you thinks you are. You can dress yourself up, seen but then comes along another beauty. You can learn their favourite music, sport, books, movies to find that theres already one they share with. You can be the perfect partner, knowing you're not the first to try. They who tried clearly wasn't perfect enough. Which then you try to be them and so really are you?